The loss of a mother Lyrics

The loss of you is unreal.

I don't know what to feel.

It's like a bad nightmare that's hard to forget.

And I'm just really upset.

Because you weren't suppose to leave like this.

This isn't right.

I can't explain how I felt that night.

Knowing everything didn't feel alright.

The loss of a mother.

I can't take seeing another.

I've known three people who are now dead.

Two were suppose to live.

My mother is on that list.

It seems like a foggy mist.

In my dreams I see you.

And I do mess some parts of you.

In heaven you were going to AA.

It seems that death was the only thing that could make you say you're sorry.

Why did you have to go like this.

It took death for you to understand me.

Not the other way around when you were alive.

You had potential yet you were misguided.

The lies and deception you learned is messed up.

You tried, but in the end it wasn't enough.

It took you seeing death's face to see your faults.

Your insanity came to a halt.

What was this all for nothing.

Just a heart break huh?

Nothing but a heart break.

After all of the years of your abuse.

You had very little common use.

After all the hell you put me thru, for so many years.

It leaves me only tears.

The loss of a mother is harder then you think.

Now all I feel is anger.

For how I never had a childhood.

I'm not misunderstood.

I know you can hear me Mom.

Some where, some place.

I only see your face.

Now I'm making a tragedy into action.

No more distraction.

I feel so betrayed, not only by my mother but the ones who disrespected my mother when she died.

I would shout out your names.

But you're not worth the breathe.

Seems you don't care much about my mother's death.

Just a bunch of abusive alcoholics like my mother was.

All you care about is the buzz.

So you can all go to hell.

For doing what you did to me after she passed.

The reality you cannot face.

Even when I touch the surface.

You can't understand my purpose.

The loss of a mother is hard to believe.

Yet people can be so naive.

And all they do is deceive, deceive, deceive!